Recovery (source: Dictionary.com): 1) the regaining of or possibility of regaining something lost or taken away, 2) restoration or return to health from sickness, 3) restoration or return to any former and better state or condition, 4) time required for recovering.
That is what I am trying to do, recover from chemo. I have had my health, and my mental health taken away from me. I have had the sense of peace and “wholeness” taken away and I want it back. I know this will take time, but I sure want to be my ol’ self now.
Yesterday when I was sitting there in my la-la land, thinking about these last few months, I realized how much I have accomplished despite the chemo. I continued to work, and go to school. I took care of my kids and my home (well the home sort of suffered 
). I continued to make friends and help other women who are going through cancer treatments. So it was not all gloom and doom and I have great respect for all women who go through chemo for it is not an easy thing to do.
I have to remind myself of these accomplishments because I feel like the light that I keep burning within myself is small and very dim… I keep focusing on how I am not the same, how I’m tired I am, and how my body hurts so much. I’m so focused on what I am not any more, that I overlook what I have overcome. I so need the light within me to burn brighter…
Recovery, yup that is where I am, I am trying to restore or return to health from sickness, and that sickness is called chemo…
