Laura’s Journey. . .

I’m pretending I’m at the beach, smelling the ocean air, feeling the ocean mist upon my face, listening to the waves… *sigh*

I love the beach, I love being outside, and it breaks my heart thinking about the days when I was so healthy and vibrant…  When I felt ALIVE… yeah, yeah, I know, I will be there again one day but that doesn’t help me right now.  I have been dealing with my cancer since last July, 10 months now and I still have 5 more months to go.  Cancer treatments is an exercise in endurance…

I feel like a truck ran me over; I am not well and part of it has to do with me being so tired, it makes me looney and weepy.  I don’t want to be this way, but I am having problems shaking off this lethargy, must be the radiation treatments catching up with me.  I’m glad tomorrow is my last treatment.  I will miss D & S, but I’m not going to miss the radation, nothing like having a reminder in your face every day reminding you that you have cancer.

I’m going to do one good thing for myself each day, today it was rest and clean my back porch so that I can sit out there and enjoy the sun on my face and head.  I will do one good thing each day to help me feel like I am taking steps towards being well.  I will work kindly towards being well…