I have been trying to keep my experience with chemotherapy in my mind, why? Because the ding dong $#@& experience interrupted my life big time! So anything this BIG, you can either try to shove it under the rug like it didn’t happen, take a nonchalant type of attitude and go que sa ra que sa ra; or drink yourself stupid, or become angry and all anal about everything OR run for them hills! 
I do get angrier easier nowadays, there is no two ways about that, it is like I have a short-fuse with “stuff” that I think are idiotic… or narrow minded… or for cancer know-it-alls 
You know these type of people, “Oh Laura, I just read in Oprah that if you eat 2 cups wheatgrass a day, it’ll flush that cancer right out of you” ok, ok, an exaggeration, I don’t even know if wheatgrass flushes you or not, but it sounds like it does don’t you think?
This anger has been making me stop and think about where is this coming from because it is so contrary to my effervescent nature so I’ve been thinking about why am I being so different. And you know what it is? My life has been on hold, it is sort of like being pregnant without the radiant glow or happy feelings, and just having the sick, tired parts for 14 months – it is enough to make anyone cranky.
So I thought, how am I going to reframe this thinking, how am I going to make my thinking “positive” (argh) about this experience, well HERE IT IS:
To Take the Beaten Path or Not? That is the Question...
I have been reborn, or am slowly being reborn, chemotherapy about killed my former life and I am coming back from a dark place and need to start over again. My new mantra for this phase of my life is: “Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
So ding dong it! I may get lost along the way, I may fall, *ell I may even run like the dickens, or more like fast waddle for a bit, but after chemo, I reckon I’m about indestructable. ;)
Here’s to blazing new trials! (literally! after chemo and radiation, how can you not be “hot” or “glow”?)
