You know for the most part I’ve been pretty satisfied with my life these last few weeks, I don’t get as frustrated as I use to even just a month ago, I still have a few moments, but I think I am finally getting well. It is about friggin’ time, it has only been since October 2007, when I started my active treatments, October 2007 to October 2008. I was diagnosed July 2007, and I remember when I was diagnosed; I didn’t know what to do, and my days just flew because I was so stressed out and worried so much I swear the days went by without me even participating. Then of course while in active treatments, I barely participated in the days…
Now 1.5 years later, I’m just like ok, the frustration is about gone, an occasional tear still gets away, and I’m still tired. I participate now in spurts and by Thursday, I’m forcing myself to stay awake and fall asleep in my chair by late afternoon, then fall asleep right before dinner, then fall asleep again right in the middle of my homework. It isn’t bad, really it isn’t, I’m just tired, but it is a good tired because I’m not angry no more about being so tired. I’m finally learning that I have to take off my super woman cape, and just be tired, I deserve it after all I’ve been through in the last year and half, yup, I’m just going to have to accept that I only have one gear right now, and that is slow. I am definitely built for comfort right now and not speed 
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Debbie // April 6, 2009 at 6:28 pm |
Ha, my daughter has one of those wooden figures.
I am glad to see U R feeling relaxed.
aklaura // April 7, 2009 at 7:02 am |
Yeh, Deb, this is an up and down process that’s for sure! Gotta take the good where I can
I love these little artist mannequins and have several of them in different sizes, although I didn’t do this picture, I’m planning to do a few pictures myself of the adventures of Super Mannequin, once I make it a little cape and give it some hair LOL
Melanie // April 10, 2009 at 1:15 pm |
Hi Laura-
I still have your card taped to my computer. Today I noticed it and had to come to your site. I’m glad that you are doing much better now and that you feeling good, but tired. Oh, and your hair looks great. I like it.
Have a great weekend.
Melanie
aklaura // April 11, 2009 at 9:02 am |
Thank you Melany
Yes life is on the mend, it was quite a ride I’ll tell you what!!!
I’m sure our paths will cross again, I’m all over Alaska now building survivor services, so I know I’ll see your smiling face again
Take care and “keep on swimming”